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[16 Jan 2006|07:58pm] |
LIVE JOURNAL! IM BACK AGAIN!! YESSSSS.
friday- it was awesome getting thrown into a wall from some stupid ska kid. all i wanted was to mosh. ahahahha
me and then parental units went down the shore on saturday. it was fucking cold and i was hit by a tidal wave on the bored walk. it was cold but awesome. it was kind of like those splash rides at six flags when u stand on the bridge and get knocked over with 10 tons of water. it was awesome. so then i bought tons of clothes cause mine were all wet and changed into them. then i played ddr in the arcade and i schooled some black guys. it was awesome.
on sunday i saw shannon. i love that girl. we went to sherbans with chris.
today i watched underworld 3 times. then danielle came over for like an hour.
this friday im going to see underworld revoution with amanda!!! YESSSS.
payce nuccas.
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[21 Nov 2005|08:55pm] |
long fucking time since i updated.
well..not alot has happend.
ok that was a lie.
i love my friends alot.
and my new kitten moo =]
and avenged sevenfold. but thats no news.
when something exciting happens ill update.
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[17 Aug 2005|11:30pm] |
i look alive, i'm dead inside. my heart has holes&
black blood flows. we'll do some drugs, we'll fall
in love & get fucked up while the world just shrugs
with no thought logically. we're wandering the
streets so aimlessly. i hate to see these kids just
being put down so painlessly. & people say you dye
your hair & wear your tight jeans, that doesn't
mean that you can't scream, or like loud noise, you
got a choice, you have a voice. & just because you
showed no love & hate on us, you fucked our trust
now watch we thrust this knife called lust into my
chest until it busts <3
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[17 Aug 2005|11:05pm] |
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warped tour? fun fun...
heh, my birthday's in a week yo!
hmm. so i like a boy. a different boy. everyone knows who he is now. heh.
a7x=amazing.
going to knobles this weekend. hopefully my cousin danielle is going. it should be fun but i wish i was going to chelsea's party instead =/ .
payce!
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[01 Aug 2005|12:00am] |
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ugh..
alot of stuff has happend. so much drama with everyonnee. i just want peace. PEACE!
saturday was tayl's sweet 16. it was alot of fun but my sunburn sucked.
today i hung out with meg and bruce. it was fun. we went to best buy and saw this hot emo guy and we tried to find him again but we couldnt. after that we went to woodbridge mall. then we met up with adam at b&n at menlo. then we came back to sp.
alot of stuff happend in between but im too tired and sun burnt.
ill write more later.
payce!
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[18 Jul 2005|05:53pm] |
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ooo jeeez. amazingly fun weekend with amanda in cape may. wont go into details about what happend lmao. just know that me and amanda are very very BADD
i love herrr ♥
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[14 Jul 2005|03:01pm] |
just, forget about me.
it's not like i really matter.
yes, i'm your friend.
i take the beatings for you.
i stand up for you.
i go through hell for you.
and i love it.
i love you.
but that's not good enough, right?
♥
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[14 Jul 2005|01:32pm] |
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blah. so much has happend. i really need to update more. well..my list of illegal things is almost complete. yerp. im goin to cape may tonight with amanda =]. it should be alot of fun.
went to the mall yesterday with chris and steph. it was alot of fun. i got a book and we ate at johnny rockets. sat in starbucks for about an hour while chris waved at everyone. it was alot of fun but im too lazy to go into details.
ill update on monday night. payce nigglets!
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[23 Jun 2005|09:27am] |
i dont wanna even fucking talk about yesterday. possibly the worst fucking day of my life. maybe.
but atleast im goin to the beach tommrow. i should feel better.
list of what i HAVE to do this summer:
1. go to the beach atleast 4 times
2. go to six flags more than 10 times
3. acually have fun in pennsylvania
4. like someone else
5. get NEW friends
6. have the guts to quit what i play in marching band
7. see rachel atleast twice
8. hang out with livi atleast 4 times.
9. do atleast 7 things that are illegal
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[21 Jun 2005|04:23pm] |
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Summertime; Mae |
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yup. everyone told me so. w/e.
alot of stuff has been goin on. last weekend i slept over nikki's. it was very enjoyable. yesterday i went to school, then me chris and stef-money walked out before 3rd period. last night i slept over danielle's. we watched a part of fight club. today me danielle and chels walked around and bought stuff for the party. tommrow im goin to six flags with jenna and zach. should be fun.
my diet has failed after too weeks and 6 pounds later. ugh. im such a failure.
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[14 Jun 2005|06:30pm] |
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Make Tonight; Emanuel |
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he who shall remain names [aka: the fucking asshole] is out of my life. YUP THATS RIGHT. OUT and all of you who think i cant do it then FUCK YOU because i can. im not mad. im not upset. im moving on. DONE im tired of causing my friends pain through all of this. and im tired of causing myself pain.
i hate HWSRM and i hate when my "friends" fucking talk about me. 2 things in my life i hate. im not depressed and im not fucking weak. yeah thanks to all my friends who think that.
LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL. finally, god.
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[12 Jun 2005|05:42pm] |
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dumm dumm dummmmmmmmmmmm..
i am on the south beach diet. no carbs! hah! i think im going to die.
LIFE SUCKS.
i have alot of anger problems. that keep gettting worse. i cant wait until the day i punch someone in the face for looking at me the wrong way. for now, i just yell and cuss until they turn away. even if they didnt mean to give me a dirty look. aaah...anger management, here i come.
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[08 Jun 2005|10:10pm] |
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the show with chels dani chris kayla and brian was alot of fun. did some moshing. met the love of my life. yeah.
ahh what the hell no one reads this thing anyway: yeah some of my friends are fake..like really fake. i hate it. not any of my real close friends..aka amanda, nikki, steph, katie, and so forth. but some of the other ones are. yeah. i need a best friend..and i mean a REAL best friend. my two best friends are amanda and nikki..and i love them..but nikki lives 20 mins away and i dont see amanda alot. yeah.
anyways..
tonight i went to the gay fair with sam. it was gay, but fun. JENNA AND DARREN NEED TO GO OUT! BADLY! hahaha.
until next time..
fatally yours,
Jess
that was gay.
im bored.
payce!
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[01 Jun 2005|07:04pm] |
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woww. pa was acually FUN this weekend. i brought amanda. we met up with shannon and her friend jess. i saw my cousin danielle. we did the hick thing and rode the hayride. heckyes. i climed on a big hill and some girl started with me. i saw my stalker. i got to drive alot. yeah..sry but im really tired ill write more later.
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[25 May 2005|08:46pm] |
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Checkmarks; The academy is |
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welp, friday i didnt do anything. saturday, i went to breakfast with livios at cafe everast. around 1:30, john and nikki picked me up, we picked up pat and went to some pizza place. i ate fries. then we picked up nick and we went to path mark to get our season passes. 85 bucks. we got to six flags around 4. we went to get our season passes done. after that we went on american scream machine. blah. i dont feel like explaining the rest. all in all, it was a very amusing day and my uncle was very please when i came home around 12. the end.
so school's almost over. im trying to plan the last few days of school to skip and go to six flags with maybe chels and dani.
payce
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[24 May 2005|06:09pm] |
this was on a local church website May 24 05
05:46pm
vanity_struckx3
If Your Child is Gothic, Reform Through the Lord!
Listed below are some warning signs to indicate if your
child may have gone astray from the Lord.
Goth is a very obscure and often dangerous
culture that young teenagers are prone to participating in. The gothic culture leads young, susceptible minds into an imagined world of evil,darkness, and violence. Please seek immediate attention through counselling, prayer,
and parental guidance to rid your child of Satan's temptations if five or more of the following are applicable to your child:
-Frequently wears black clothing.
-Wears band and/or rock t-shirts.
-Wears excessive black eye makeup, lipstick or nailpolish.
-Wears any odd, silver jewelry or symbols. Some of these include:
reversed crosses, pentagrams, pentacles, ankhs or various
other
Satanic
worshipping symbols.
-Shows an interest in piercings or tattoos.
-Listens to gothic or any other anti-social genres of
music. (Marilyn Manson claims to be the anti-Christ, and publicly speaks
against the Lord. Please discard any such albums IMMEDIATELY.)
-Associates with other people that dress, act or speak
eccentrically.
-Shows a declining interest in wholesome activities, such
as: the Bible, prayer, church or sports.
-Shows an increasing interest in death, vampires, magic,
the occult, witchcraft or anything else that involves Satan.
-Takes drugs.
-Drinks alcohol.
-Is suicidal and/or depressed.
-Cuts, burns or partakes in any other method of self-mutilation. (This is a Satanic ritual that uses pain to detract from the light of God and
His love. Please seek immediate attention for this at your local mental health center.)
-Complains of boredom.
-Sleeps too excessively or too little.
-Is excessively awake during the night.
-Dislikes sunlight or any other form of light. (This pertains to
vampires promoting the idea that His light is of no use.)
-Demands an unusual amount of privacy.
-Spends large amounts of time alone.
-Requests time alone and quietness. (This is so that your chid may speak to evil sprits through meditation.)
-Insists on spending time with friends while unaccompanied by an adult.
-Disregards authority figures; teachers, priests, nuns and
elders are but a few examples of this.
-Misbehaves at school.
-Misbehaves at home.
-Eats excessively or too little.
-Eats goth-related foods. Count Dracula cereal is an example of this.
-Drinks blood or expresses an interest in drinking blood.
(Vampires believe this is how to attain Satan. This act is very dangerous and should be stopped immediately.)
-Watches cable television or any other corrupted media
sources. (Ask your local church for proper programs that your child may watch.)
-Plays videos games that contains violence or role-playing nature.
-Uses the internet excessively and frequently makes time for the computer.
-Makes Satanic symbols and/or violently shakes head to music.
-Dances to music in a provocative or sexual manner.
-Expresses an interest in sex.
-Masturbates
-Is homosexual and/or bisexual.
-Pursues dangerous cult religions. Such include: Satanism, Scientology, Philosophy, Paganism, Wicca, Hinduism and Buddhism.
-Wears pins, stickers or anything else that contains these various phrases: "I'm so gothic, I'm dead", "woe is me", "I'm a goth".
-Claims to be a goth.
If five or more of these apply to your child, please intervene immediately. The gothic culture is dangerous and Satan thrives within it. If any of these problems persist, enlist your child into your local mental health center.
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[19 May 2005|04:27pm] |
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last weekend was the best<3 on friday me, chels, chris, dani, and kayla went to westfield to see a show with the dialtones. it was fun. jonna met us there are 8. we walked around and played baseball with waterbottles in the dark. lol. we went to sherban's afterwards and hung out for a lil. saturday i went to PA and did nothing. sunday i came back and me dani and chris went to the crossroads to see the dialtones again. it was fun fun. met some cool people. made danielle talk to max. the next show is june 4th.
softball is over<3 =[. i got to be friends with alot of people that i will miss til next season. i decided to play soccer again in the fall. woop.
today me and sam skipped 2nd period and went to the library. were such bad ass's.
plans for the weekend?- hang out with zach tommrow night, HOPEFULLY 6 flags on saturday to get my season pass with nikki and john, and sunday, idk.
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[17 May 2005|09:42pm] |
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Here's everything i always meant to say; Jamisonparker |
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Just be in love and I’ll kiss you like you’ve always wanted
Just close your eyes, I’ll still live as if I’m dying
If I don’t make your heart skip a beat then hate me
If I don’t make you feel anything than it’s me
I just want you to feel beautiful
For once in your life
I just want you to feel beautiful
For once in your life
Just close your eyes and I’ll kiss you like there’s no tomorrow
If I don’t make your heart skip a beat then hate me
If I don’t make you feel anything then it’s me
I just want you to feel beautiful
For once in your life
I just want you to feel beautiful
For once in your life
So sleep now, so deep in static
Drifting in the shadows
Hold me close to the fourwall headlights
And TV screens
I just want you to feel beautiful
For once in your life
oh so emo<3
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[12 May 2005|08:18pm] |
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The everglow; Mae |
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stole it from melissa..
[10 things in your room]
01. My bed
02. My fish<3
03. tv
04. stereo
05. dresser
06. manny posterss
07. cds
08. computer
09. clothes?
10. books
[9 things you love]
01. him<3
02. my friends
03. music
04. kurt cobain
05. flowers
06. kissing
07. softball
08. snowboarding
09. family?
[8 songs you love]
01. unholy confessions; avenged sevenfold
02. memory or tradgedy; ambry
03. smells like teen spirit; nirvana
04. some seek forgiveness, others escape; underoath
05. the drama summer; the starting line
06. pieces mended; the used
07. rutheless; something corporate
08. this time is the last time; mae
[7 characteristics you like about the other gender]
01. eyes
02. smile
03. hair
04. personality
05. cares alot
06. honesty
07. who loves me?
[6 things that annoy you]
01. people in my school, most deff
02. SPANISH BITCHES WHO DONT WALK IN THE HALLWAYS
03. when my computer freezes
04. when i miss csi
05. MY SISTER asdnfkjashdufhusaodfj
06. my parents
[5 things you're wearing]
01. brand new shirt
02. softball sweat pants
03. socks
04. bra
05. underwear
[4 of your nicknames]
01. jess
02. jessie
03. jehica
04. jessiepoo
[3 words to describe you]
01. ugly
02. nice?
03. idiotic
[2 clothes brands you wear]
01. dc
02. any band that i have
[1 thing you can't live without]
01. csi
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[09 May 2005|09:03pm] |
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All At Deliberate Speed; Mae |
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idk wut i would do without softball. im honestly thinking about doing track again, yeah, thats right, TRACK. =0 . we lost today. but i had a really good hit to left field and i scored 1 of the 2 runs we had. drumline practice tommrow.
saw house of wax with amanda on friday. pretty corny.
i went to pa. i drove my dads van. not to great but it was ok.
yeah.
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